Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 12:41 AM
I fear when the sun set.
It really dawn on me that the feeling is crippling.
I tried to stay away and thought i was strong enough for everything but God has its own plan for me. Fate definitely has its way of ridiculing you at times leaving me dumbfounded at times. I pray to God everyday to give me the strength and serenity to wake up every day with the sun shining on me.
When life hits me hard on the head, i drop unconscious and hope that i will never wake up but i will always wake up somehow picking up the little pieces at a time. It has never been an easy task but somehow i manage to scrape by.
To start with, i am never perfect, living in an imperfect home leading a nothing out of the ordinary life. And i have learnt that i can never expect to be treated the same like how i treated people. At the end of the day i will just end up hurt and disappointed.
I wait for the sun to rise everyday hoping that the crippling feeling will stop haunting me.
