Thursday, June 04, 2009 @ 10:59 PM
I am VERY angry and disappointed at you. And that serves as a purpose for me to write this. Whatever that i am going to mentioned may not be anything nice for you to read but i hope it let you see the big picture and REFLECT ON YOUR ATTITUDE.
Questions after questions keep popping up in my head and you hold the answer to everything. I firmly believe that IF YOU TREAT US AS YOUR BESTFRIENDS YOU SHOULD BE HONEST AND OPEN TO US INSTEAD OF RUNNING AWAY OR KEEPING QUIET. WHAT A WAY TO TREAT YOUR BESTFRIENDS.
First of all i would like to inform you that we choose not to wish you on your birthday because you told us to "leave me alone then". And so we granted your very wish. We tried to get answers from you and were concern but you pushed us away. It was a damn awful feeling to get pushed away by your very own bestfriends. I was damn disappointed at your attitude. I may not be the best and nicest person on earth but at least i know NOT to pushed away my bestfriends because i treasure them.
We were waiting for you to actually call or msg us to make up for it BUT YOU DID NOT. YOU CHOOSE TO RUN AWAY. And let me tell you, running away DOES NOT solve anything. It will just remain as that. You lied and you cannot expect us to find you right. We already did our part by calling you and dropping by your place to talk things out but your 'heck-care' attitude that day was just plain rude. You DID NOT even want to open the present which we already told you was something special to us. What was even disappointing was that you did not even give us any damn indication that you appreciated it at all! And worse of all you were not open to us.
UP TILL NOW WE STILL DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HAVE TO LIE. WHY SHAFAWATI. WHY?
You can be crying and feeling sad (which i am not sure if you are anyway since you got SO MANY friends around you who care for you) about everything but if you CHOOSE TO CONTINUE THAT WAY NOBODY CAN HELP YOU. We tried to help you by hoping you will open up and express yourself (and stop saying that you are not good at that because there are so many ways to express yourself) but you choose to keep quiet. AND SO STOP SAYING NO ONE IS THERE FOR YOU. That is bullshit. If you choose not to talk, we will not be able to know and when we do not know we are unable to help you.
"This always happen on my birthday" - Shafa, we tried to make it the best for you but you ruined it yourself. And what was more shitty was that you even got the cheek to even say on sunday that "it already happen and i cannot change it, so i can only say sorry". For goodness sake shafa, do you even think a sorry serves to solve everything without any PROPER explanation!!!!!!!! That tone and attitude when you were saying that is seriously plain 'heck care'.
Is this how you treat your bestfriends? If you continue being this way being egoistic and quiet you will just end up regretting this very day. YOu will regret your actions and serve to lose a precious friendship (if you still feel that our friendship is precious).
You keep saying you have no friends la, and you would rather be spending time with us if given a choice BUT YOUR ACTIONS DOES NOT SEEM TO SHOW ANY OF THAT. As a matter of fact, you have many friends who actually love and care for you.
And if you still continue to keep quiet and not speak up.. i really do not know what to say of you aymore.
You have changed into someone i do not know anymore. Anyway enhoy yourself on your birthday.
Right this moment, all your friends might say that i am very evil and mean. But to be treated by you in that way has leave me with no choice. You may think that i am being cruel but let me tell you.. so are you..
We want not only sorry but an explanation and answers.
